A new hobby

I have a new hobby. It's in some parties called "chatting"... It seems I'm spending hour upon hour chatting with people... but not any people... no... I'm chatting to guys.... mostly, to single guys. And a bonus to this chatting, is dating! I've found a site where it seems there are a lot of guys wanting to meet me... and after the breakup that I've been through this summer, it feels swell to be "popular" again...! So you can sort of say that my new hobby is 'dating'! It is actually quite fun! I mean... there are so many people that I come in touch with, that I normally wouldn't have gotten in touch with if we hadn't started to speak on the net! And between the really weird people, there are also some really nice ones! And of course also the ones that only want to have a taste of the sweet honey... but I don't give away my honey to John Bull... give me Johnny Depp, and I'll consider it... ;-)

Anyway... it's a fascinating world...!! And for the time being, I'm very glad I'm single!! It's quite amusing!

On love

"Everybody wants to be loved
That is a wrong beginning.
And it starts because the child, the small child,
cannot love, cannot say anything, cannot do
anything, cannot give anything - he can only get.

A small child's experience of love is of getting
But the trouble arises because
everybody has been a child, and
everybody has the same urge to get love,
and nobody is born in any other way.

So all are asking, 'Give us love',
and there is nobody to give
because the other person is also
brought up in the same way."

OSHO

Holiday Trip

It is my holiday! And despite having become single, i still want to go to Denmark as me and my boyfriend had planned. The only difference is that I have swopped my boyfriend, now ex, with a girlfriend I have met at my paintingclass! Wohoo! And who better to take along to Skagen in Denmark!? The place I know about which have been run down by artists for centuries! And I'm going there with a friend with a joined interest in arts and paintings!! Wonderful!

It's a bit weird... my ex visited me today, and he sat down for a cup of tea. And I actually found it hard to talk to him... I was thinking to myself... Who is this guy...?? Have I really been in a relationship with this stranger?? What happened?? When did we last sit down to talk??

I'm soooo glad I'm not going on a trip with him... It would have been a drag...!

But now... ;-) you danish guys!! Look out!! Here we come!!!

Chocolate

Taken directly from the refrigerator... its crispy, going in flakes when I bite through it. Dark chocolate... the heavy taste spreading in my mouth as it melts and reaches all my tastebuds. Filling my mouth with a velvety feeling, soft, smooth, warm and mmmm........ bittersweet!

I take another bite... letting the taste fill my whole being. I am the chocolate, a wave of sensual velvety feelings, smooth... tasty... Wanting to be tasted... let someone put me in their mouths to feel the same feeling, let me reach out to your tastebuds and let me play! I will excite you with my whole being, making you go soft and warm and smooth... like chocolate...!

Being single again

Gives me time for reflections again. Reflections about what I want with my life. What I want to experience, and what I want to spend time doing.

The other day I was at a nude beach here in Oslo, swimming with a blind person. He had entrusted his life in my care asking me if I wanted to swim with him, and guide him to a small reef. And so I did. We swam out with me chatting about this and that so that he could hear my voice to find the direction.

We sat out on the reef for one and a half hour, talking with a third man. A man who regularly practices Chi Gung. We talked about meditation, about finding out who we really are. Spirituality and mental happiness. He asked me if I was happy with my development, when I answered that this had been put to a halt while being in a relationship with a man that didn't share my belief in these sides of life. He was very clear when he said to me "Do what you want to do!" He told me about books written by an Author with the pen name A.H.Almaas. And encouraged me to read them. We also talked about Osho, and his perspectives of meditation and buddhism. Yesterday I bought a book by Osho called "When the shoe fits". I'm looking foreward to open it and read it properly... But wanted to ask you folks if you have read anything by this Almaas!? Please tell me about it!!

Encouragement

The Sun warms my back
It knows I would have wanted to
be somewhere else
It encourages me to stay put
"Tomorrow there's a new day"
it says joyfully
and dries up the wet tarmac
After rain comes sun...
After sorrow comes joy...
After loneliness comes love...
Will you come?

And the Sun warms me